I have nooo idea anymore. None what so ever. I don't have a clue about where I am going or what I am doing. What will happen next. I wish I could just go on vacation for a while by myself and think about everything.
And I know I don't want to give up on a few things in life, but I sure as hell feel like it. I am too strong to give up and I would be kicking myself in the pants for the rest of my life if I did. But really I think he wants to which doesn't help matters when I hoping things will get better.
You know I have never been so hurt in my whole entire life, well I guess besides a few things, but for the most part this goes hand in hand with the others. Urgh! When can I get a break. When can things start looking up? I am just so tired of it all. I feel so alone too, like I have no one. The one person who is actually around doesn't even care and just messed things up, but can't understand. I have no idea what to do at all. I am so confused, seriously!
I'm hurt.
Oh Megan! i wish I could help you out! if there is anyway i can , please please let me know and I will do it!
ReplyDeleteYou are a very strong person, an amazing Mother and those are the things that count!!!
I often wish that life came with a handbook and gave you a trouble shooting section, but since this is not reality, it makes it super tough for sure!!!
Im sorry Dustin has hurt you (so it sounds) and i hope he smartes up!
awwww Megan!! I'm so sorry you're hurting!!! You can always take a vacation here ;) Or even better we can go together hehe I just posted a status that I am feeling soo tired and disconnected from my hubby! We never have alone time anymore and when I go to bed early to watch tv and relax he would rather stay down stairs. He works so late and on weekends. I get very excited about taking Blake and Chelsea to organized activities and it seems like he could care less. Not to mention the no sex life with Chelsea sleeping in our bed! UGH! If you need to talk or vent..you can always come to me! I hope that what Dustin did wasn't too bad and something that you two can't work out! XoXo
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