Before having Dagney and well really before being pregnant I use to like cleaning and having a nice tidied, organized, clean living place and I did of course while I was pregnant too, but morning sickness in the first trimester put that on a hault and then as I got bigger and bigger it was harder for me to do things. It actually started to make me feel depressed and still does. Of course with having a child you lack certain things in certain departments and cleaning is one of them.
I don't have time to clean and I hate it!! Dagney is very needy and HATES when I leave his side. Yes, he is going through the usual seperation anxiety they go through around 5-6 months. I just hope he gets out of it in the next few months or else I am going to have a hard time doing anything at all. It's probably bad, but he goes pee with me, does pretty much everything with me just so he doesn't cry and whine. I know it's probably bad giving into him, but I can't stand him crying nor do I want to neglect him when he wants me. He is only little for once and he needs me even if he is with me all the time. Now maybe if I wasn't pumping all the time I would have some more time to clean to who really knows? Maybe it is just me but I find it does take away from my time with him too. We do sit on the ground together and interact while I have the pump going just so I am not totally not available to him. I do feel guilty though.
Anyways, I can not wait to be able to clean properly again. Even if it doesn't stay clean for long at least I was able to get my cleaning out of my system for that day. lol
One day I will be able to clean again.
I miss being able to clean as well, it seems there is no time to do the things I used to!
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