Showing posts with label cleaning products. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cleaning products. Show all posts

Monday, February 28, 2011

What ever happened to my clean place?

Before having Dagney and well really before being pregnant I use to like cleaning and having a nice tidied, organized, clean living place and I did of course while I was pregnant too, but morning sickness in the first trimester put that on a hault and then as I got bigger and bigger it was harder for me to do things. It actually started to make me feel depressed and still does. Of course with having a child you lack certain things in certain departments and cleaning is one of them.
  I don't have time to clean and I hate it!! Dagney is very needy and HATES when I leave his side. Yes, he is going through the usual seperation anxiety they go through around 5-6 months. I just hope he gets out of it in the next few months or else I am going to have a hard time doing anything at all. It's probably bad, but he goes pee with me, does pretty much everything with me just so he doesn't cry and whine. I know it's probably bad giving into him, but I can't stand him crying nor do I want to neglect him when he wants me. He is only little for once and he needs me even if he is with me all the time. Now maybe if I wasn't pumping all the time I would have some more time to clean to who really knows? Maybe it is just me but I find it does take away from my time with him too. We do sit on the ground together and interact while I have the pump going just so I am not totally not available to him. I do feel guilty though.
  Anyways, I can not wait to be able to clean properly again. Even if it doesn't stay clean for long at least I was able to get my cleaning out of my system for that day. lol
  One day I will be able to clean again.